Too Much to Do

I have too much to do, and not enough hours in the day to get everything accomplished - family, school, running a household, (and least of all) having time for Mommy. I saw a couple of neighbors at Wally-World on Sunday, and Eric hit it right on the head - I don't really work to work. I work to have a vacation form being a mother. For that, I may be faulted, but I don't think I can be a good mother without having some time to myself for decompression.

Take today for example. I am still coping with the fact that I'm not going back to nursing school - again. Last year was a completely different situation (having a baby), I came to terms with the fact that I needed to put the welfare of my infant above my desire to further my education. It was not "dropping out" of school, it was devoting myself to my child and realizing that I would not be able to get back the first year of her life if I tried to continue with school. This year, it was the case of being borderline - along with 12 other classmates - and not having anything to push you over the edge. Those of us that were *this* close to continuing are all in agreement on one thing - the grading rubric must change!!! I'll explain why...

First Quarter, your grade is determined by 4 tests, the final, and how your group does on a presentation. Second Quarter, your grade is determined by 4 tests and the final. That's it. Nothing else. So all the work that is done preparing for labs and check-offs, clinical preparations and the ever important Care Plan paper, counts for shit. I don't know exactly how many hours I spent on that fricken paper, but I'm sure it was close to 200 hours. And the damn thing didn't count towards my final grade. I even talked to the program director about this gross misjustice. She told me that in the past, the care plan did count toward the final grade, but that it brought a majority of the student's grades DOWN. How the hell can that happen?!?!? You get your CP client, and then you have a month to work on the damn thing, and you can give any part of it to you clinical instructor at any time for help/feedback. It seems to me that the care plan should be a given "A" in the class - that is unless you screw it up by not turning in the paper to begin with. I guess this falls into the category of "No use crying over spilled milk", huh?